dissonates: credit... unsure? (uh-huh whatever you say)
Asch the Bloody ([personal profile] dissonates) wrote 2010-11-10 05:30 am (UTC)

...I think a lot of what you said made me angry. [A pause, and then-] But most of the time, what makes me angry is also the truth. I never wanted to acknowledge that.

[He doesn't really want to acknowledge it now, either, but sometimes what's difficult is also necessary. It's the sort of philosophy he's always lived by; why start rejecting it now? All he has to do is accept what's necessary, after all.]

...I can't change who I am. I can change my behaviour, if I try- even if it's hard, even if I don't really want to. It's possible. Maybe it's even necessary. [There's that unhappy word again.] But I will always be a Fabre. Even with a different name, I'm still Luke fon Fabre. I'll always have a Fabre's hair, a Fabre's eyes, stupid Fabre's genes. I can hate it all I want, you can hate it all you want, but that will never change. But I'm not my father, any more than I'm the replica- ...Luke.

[He's trying, he's trying. It's so hard, but he needs to try.

It's necessary.]


This isn't meant to be an ultimatum, or a threat. But you need to know that if we can't fix this, then I won't stay here. I can't. Even if you think I need to be here for my own sake, I can't.

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