[Asch's eyes narrow at that, and not for the first time he hates that he can't see Guy's expression. His voice is telling, sure, but it's never enough for him.]
Why does it matter? You weren't even here, you had nothing to do with it!
[He didn't, but he did. He did it. And yet-
He just-
It hurts. It hurts, and his shoulder is aching, and he can feel the blade in his shoulder and he knows that it's all in his mind, just a phantom pain and an old memory and his arm is fine, there's no wound and no blood. Just memories. Memories and hate and blood feathers flying through the air, green eyes filling with horror, an emotionless face just watching him die.
You weren't here. You weren't here and I died because it was him and he wasn't you.
And he's not sure if he's telling himself this because it's true, or if it's because he desperately wants to believe that the Guy who'd done so much to make him feel worthwhile could never kill him, curse slot or not.
But that's stupid. It's stupid because he'd tried to kill Luke when cursed like that, both times, and if Luke couldn't change that about him then what the hell chance did Asch have?]
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Why does it matter? You weren't even here, you had nothing to do with it!
[He didn't, but he did. He did it. And yet-
He just-
It hurts. It hurts, and his shoulder is aching, and he can feel the blade in his shoulder and he knows that it's all in his mind, just a phantom pain and an old memory and his arm is fine, there's no wound and no blood. Just memories. Memories and hate and blood feathers flying through the air, green eyes filling with horror, an emotionless face just watching him die.
You weren't here. You weren't here and I died because it was him and he wasn't you.
And he's not sure if he's telling himself this because it's true, or if it's because he desperately wants to believe that the Guy who'd done so much to make him feel worthwhile could never kill him, curse slot or not.
But that's stupid. It's stupid because he'd tried to kill Luke when cursed like that, both times, and if Luke couldn't change that about him then what the hell chance did Asch have?]