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[dissonates]

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What the hell happened to me.

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I just wish it wasn't so hard.

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[cherub-gardios.livejournal.com]

It'll get easier, over time.

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... I'll try to believe in that.

I guess you'd know.

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[cherub-gardios.livejournal.com]

I do know. You're making better progress than I did, if it helps.

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I've never hidden how I felt.

Not the negative thoughts, anyway.

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And I had the opposite problem. We're two pieces of a kind of screwed up puzzle, huh?

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With the replica in the middle.

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...I guess so.

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That's not something that will change, Guy. Now, more than ever.

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[cherub-gardios.livejournal.com]

You don't have to tell me that, Asch. Luke is an irreplaceable part of my life.

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.... Irreplaceable. Must be nice.

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Damn it, Asch.

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It's the truth.

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No it's not, but nothing I say seems to convince you. Van may have done what he did purposefully, but we couldn't have known. Human replication -it was forbidden. Why would we even think that Van would do something like that?

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.... I don't know.

All I know is that the replica was good enough for you. I hate what he did, but... Van is the only one who needed me. Not just my body.

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...Van just wanted to use you.

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But it had to be me. No one else. Not even the replica.

Is it better to be used, or discarded and forgotten?

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And what about now? What about the people who want you for you, not for your hyperresonance, right now?

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I haven't decided yet.

Who's to say it won't happen again?

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You're joking, right?

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You honestly think we would let something like that happen again?

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I don't

What would you do, then?

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[cherub-gardios.livejournal.com]

Save you.

I don't know if you've noticed, but the first sign of you being in danger sends Luke running to your side.

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He's an idiot. I've done nothing but antagonize him since day one.