[Sorry, Asch. Buffy has too much fresh experience dealing with her own loss and very little sense for personal boundaries. Though, feel free to rant and rave at her if she's wrong. Or even if she's right.]

You mean, you needed something to do that made you feel close to him. A friend's missing, so you pick something that was a huge part of his identity. I get that, it's gettable. And understandable and actually? Kind of sweet in its own way. [A sentiment she punctuates with a hearty drink and--hey! Not too shabby a job, not-Guy.]