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I need to speak with one of the Malnosso.

[Today, Asch is all over the place. First to the plaza, to check the item bazaar for a few things; next, to the north edge of the village, above the houses, his favourite spot to ~~blow shit up~~ practice his fonic artes; finally, to the opposite edge, sword practice against the targets inside the barracks. He's gotten so restless since Luke's disappearance and he needs to stay on the move to avoid going crazy.

Feel free to bother him at any of those locations or even en route; he could use some socializing.]

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So you think that wandering off to be alone is what's best?

[A little hypocritical of him, since that used to be the first thing he did, but he's learned to at least seek out Guy first these days. Maybe someday he'll learn to branch out.]

Why wouldn't it be?

[He's clearly cursed; H moved in with him and then was sent home, and now two of his best friends are gone too.]

I thought you were supposed to rely on your friends.

[Or so he's heard.]

Not anymore.

Why?

Because they... they're just going to leave, like everyone else did.

And pushing away the people still here is your solution.

Why does it matter if they're just going to be sent home too?

You don't know that. You're just making assumptions because you're scared.

I do know that. Why else would people like Richter and Tenebrae and Horatio and Luke all get sent home?

...Emil, I want you to do something for me.

[Stop being retarded for one- wait he can't say that, damn. It's strange; despite how frustrating Emil is being, Asch feels oddly calm. Maybe it's because he understands- he's been there.]

List all the people who you either consider friends or who you know care about you.

[He thinks for a moment. What counts as a friend? Just talking to someone? He talks to a lot of people, but he's not sure he would consider all of them friends, more like acquaintances.]

Um... you, Doctor McCoy, Yuri, Raven, Judith, Colette, Sheena, Zelos, Genis, Regal, Raine, Buffy, Fina, Minato, Vyse, Stahn...

[Asch just leans back and crosses his arms, giving Emil a look. Are you paying attention to what you're saying, Emil?]

But they could all be sent home too, and I might never see them again.

And they might stay here for a year, two, more than that. Just how long are you going to push them away?

I... I don't know.

Then I have nothing else to say to you.

I'm sorry...

[Oh damn, now he's starting to tear up, how embarrassing. Maybe Asch won't notice?

... yeah right.]

[Yep, he notices. Doesn't know what to do about it, though, he's not good with crying. And he knows that's not really a coping tactic, either.]

...Emil...

[Not the best of coping tactics, but it's something Emil has found himself doing on a fairly regular basis lately. And besides, it can't be THAT bad if McCoy encouraged him to cry and let it out.

Somewhat embarrassed, he'll rest his arms on the table and bury his face in them so at least Asch can't SEE him crying.]

[...Goddammit, Emil, how is that helping?

After a moment Asch just turns away. At this rate he'll only get more frustrated and yell, and he- ...well, alright, he wants to, but since he's the one who invited Emil back here, he probably shouldn't...]

I... I'm sorry... I can leave if you want...

[IT MIGHT DO YOU SOME GOOD TO CRY ONCE IN A WHILE TOO, ASCH. 8|]

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