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Asch the Bloody ([personal profile] dissonates) wrote2012-07-08 10:21 pm

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[Silence.

There's too much of it. It burns into his mind, the echo of emptiness in the corner of it, that ache he can't seem to brush aside no matter how he tries to distract himself. He's tried going outside, he's tried burying himself in that braille stuff Xion gave him, he's tried striking up conversations with his housemates (even the animals), but he runs out of things to say far too quickly and in the back of his mind it's always there. The silence, the echo. The fact that something is missing.

Dead.

And then he's had enough.

The journal's camera is partially obscured when the feed flickers on, and what it does show is his face - eyes, a flash of red hair, his bangs down - just enough to make it seem like he's not quite himself. His voice, too, is softened; it's not as open and friendly as Luke would have been when greeting the village, but it lacks the usual anger or pent-up frustrations of the socially-awkward soldier. If anything it sounds... hushed, weary, tinged with a bit of desperation. He needs this. Whether or not he wants to do it is irrelevant.

It hurts. The silence hurts, more than last time when Luke had been sent home, and he honestly hadn't thought it would.]


Tell me about your day. Tell me a story. Talk about anything. Today I'm listening.

[He might not care. He might not be nice about it. He might not even remember it later. But he'll listen.

He just needs to hear something, so he can forget about the nothing in his head for a while.]

((Asch is blind, so all tags must be voice/action or he cannot respond to them!))
inkdrops: ([issun]: Never gonna let you go.)

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[personal profile] inkdrops 2012-07-14 03:16 am (UTC)(link)
[Miyabi can't see Asch extending his hand to her through the growing blur her tears are causing, but she certainly feeling his touch. She's just in time to stumble into his arms and immediately press herself closer after a moment's worth of surprise. Grasping Asch tight, Miyabi squeezes her eyes shut as tears run down from her cheeks. Hadn't she cried enough already? It was the same as when she heard about Asch, but perhaps this time it was worse - if only because it just happened so soon after Asch returned. Miyabi barely had any time to recover from Asch's death before Luke passed away.

She presses her face into his shoulder and cries, hard and undaunted, and grips Asch's clothes clothes as if he'd suddenly vanish from her arms yet again if she let go.]


I'm sorry! I'm so sorry, I...I couldn't do anything! For either of you!
inkdrops: (Just a shy child.)

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[personal profile] inkdrops 2012-07-16 01:29 am (UTC)(link)
[Miyabi doesn't stop, not yet. She continues crying and shaking and just clinging. Maybe she couldn't have done anything to help, like Asch says, but that doesn't make the pain any less difficult to take. If anything, that only makes it worse. She doesn't ever want to have to hear from another person about a death of a close friend. It just shows how powerless she is to do anything against the ways of this place. And that's just not fair. It's just not fair at all.]

Then what am I supposed to do?!
inkdrops: (Whisper to me.)

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[personal profile] inkdrops 2012-07-19 09:46 pm (UTC)(link)
[She can do that. She can do that well enough, sure. Welcoming Luke back wouldn't be hard at all, but doing it straight-faced? That may be doomed to fail regardless of how Miyabi tries to force a smile onto her face. She'll always be remembered that there was nothing else she could have done...but Asch is right. What she can do is probably the most important now. It's okay to cry, it's okay to grieve, but when Luke returns, welcome him back - be happy, for his sake. Because who wants to return to people who are miserable?]

M-Mm...okay. I-I will.

[She sniffs, and keeps holding on, pressing her face against Asch's chest. It still hurts.]
inkdrops: (Looking up at the Night's Sky)

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[personal profile] inkdrops 2012-07-24 04:31 am (UTC)(link)
[At last, with her grief and tears spent, Miyabi removes herself from Asch just enough to wipe her face free of the mess. She's a little embarrassed to have broken apart like that, and in front of such a strong person like Asch, but Miyabi's just glad she finally stopped. She nods in response, and looks up at Asch at last.]

Are you feeling all right? I'm sorry...I-I didn't even think to ask--...it must be hard on you as well...
inkdrops: (You'll always be in my heart.)

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[personal profile] inkdrops 2012-07-27 03:13 am (UTC)(link)
[Miyabi's hand comes to rest gently on one of Asch's arms, her fingers curling into the fabric of his shirt. It's a silent question if he'd allow her to guide him toward the kitchen. It's the very least she can do for Asch now, after her little episode just now. And hearing that last part, and even the swiftness of his first answer, she can only imagine what Asch was really thinking, or feeling.]

If it'd be all right...I could certainly use the company for a little while. [They both could.] Whenever it's fine for you, of course.
inkdrops: (Baby you're Beautiful when you Smile)

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[personal profile] inkdrops 2012-07-28 07:54 pm (UTC)(link)
[As Miyabi gently tugs Asch in the direction of the kitchen, she can't help but chuckle a little bit. A story? She can certainly do that, given how many she knows - stories are told in Ponc'Tan practically every day, and she remembers the majority of them. Some she actually used to play out when she was really young, too.]

Oh, I think I can do that very well. [Pulling out a chair at the table, Miyabi leads Asch into it carefully.] Would you like to hear one now?
inkdrops: (Looking up at the Night's Sky)

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[personal profile] inkdrops 2012-07-29 05:05 pm (UTC)(link)
[Miyabi also seats herself, and hums as she thinks of a story. The first to come to her mind is the one she's already told to Asch - it is the most famous one - but after a bit more thought, she finds another amongst the many she knows. It's a little sad, but maybe she can turn it around to have a happier ending. One way to find out.]

Long, long ago, a tower was built on an island out to sea. It was built by an old cat, after having lived for many, many years. Much longer than any cat has ever lived before. They say the cat lived for so long, and learned so much, and cared about the world around it, that it became a god. And that very same cat built the tower - a tower that rose up unto the heavens themselves - to watch over the world below.
inkdrops: (Whisper to me.)

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[personal profile] inkdrops 2012-08-01 07:35 pm (UTC)(link)
[Continuing, Miyabi actually feels a little sad as she recollects the legend of the cat god. It's actually a very sad tale, and it shows in the tone of her voice. Had Asch been able to see, he'd easily notice that she also looks a little sad as she speaks, too. It's sad how the story really is, and how she herself has to alter it to make it actually have a happy ending.]

But the cat misjudged the height of the tower only after it was complete. And the poor thing was too afraid to climb back down, so it was force to stay at the top for days, months, years...crying out for help, for food, for a friend to come and keep it company. Some say that it was up there for so long, that it eventually turned to stone in the end. And to this day, you can hear a cat crying from down below.
inkdrops: (It's like catching Sunlight in a jar~)

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[personal profile] inkdrops 2012-08-03 04:33 pm (UTC)(link)
[Welcome to Nippon, Asch. 8| That actually is where the original story ends, and Miyabi has to pause for a moment to think of how to add on to it and make it a little more lighthearted. She chews her lower lip in though and hums before she gets something.]

But! A young girl, saddened by the story and the crying she heard from the tower, dared to climb the immense tower. Through sheer will, and the strength of her resolute heart, she reached the very top! Dirty, exhausted, and all but skin and bone after days of climbing, the child reached into her robed and removed a salted fish, wrapped in linen - the only morsel of food she brought with her. Instead of partaking of the meal herself, she lay it before the stone statue, and uttered a prayer, in memory of the cat god.

Immediately, the crying stopped! And she heard purring, and felt a gentle touch on her back, like that of a cat rubbing itself against her. Too weak to climb down the tower, the child stayed at the top, where she was blessed...and turned into an emissary of the god cat. Every year, people say, they see a kitten climb down and back up the tower, holding a fish in its mouth. And never again did the crying of the cat reach their ears.

[Ah...much better.]
inkdrops: (If looks could kill...)

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[personal profile] inkdrops 2012-08-05 01:08 am (UTC)(link)
[... B\

Miyabi narrows her eyes, puts her thumb and middle finger together, moves it toward Asch slowly, and flicks his nose. He my be teasing, but Miyabi does not appreciate the tone regardless.]


Be nice.
inkdrops: (Smile for Today - Smile for Tomorrow.)

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[personal profile] inkdrops 2012-08-07 02:52 am (UTC)(link)
[Hey, you deserved it for being equally rude. B\ She told you a story, and even made to completely fudge that last part to actually make it a good one! Otherwise it really is as sad and miserable as it sounded.]

I'm glad you liked it. [Should she tell him the last part was made up? ...Nah.] Thank you.
inkdrops: (Tea is for Tranquility)

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[personal profile] inkdrops 2012-08-09 02:32 am (UTC)(link)
You listened to it. That's enough to be thankful for. [She smiles, then reaches out and puts her hand over Asch's, gently.] And being here really cheered me up, too. I appreciate the company.

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