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Asch the Bloody ([personal profile] dissonates) wrote2008-05-03 01:58 am
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What the hell happened to me.
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[personal profile] dissonates 2008-05-04 07:22 am (UTC)(link)
It doesn't?

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Guy, I...
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[personal profile] dissonates 2008-05-04 07:27 am (UTC)(link)
......

A part of me wishes it hadn't worn off.

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[identity profile] cherub-gardios.livejournal.com 2008-05-04 07:29 am (UTC)(link)
You were smiling a minute ago.

I think...that you can make it happen without the outside help. You just need a little time and maybe a nudge.
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[personal profile] dissonates 2008-05-04 07:31 am (UTC)(link)
I just wish it wasn't so hard.

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[identity profile] cherub-gardios.livejournal.com 2008-05-04 07:33 am (UTC)(link)
It'll get easier, over time.
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[personal profile] dissonates 2008-05-04 07:35 am (UTC)(link)
... I'll try to believe in that.

I guess you'd know.

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[identity profile] cherub-gardios.livejournal.com 2008-05-04 07:40 am (UTC)(link)
I do know. You're making better progress than I did, if it helps.
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[personal profile] dissonates 2008-05-04 07:44 am (UTC)(link)
I've never hidden how I felt.

Not the negative thoughts, anyway.

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[identity profile] cherub-gardios.livejournal.com 2008-05-04 07:54 am (UTC)(link)
And I had the opposite problem. We're two pieces of a kind of screwed up puzzle, huh?
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[personal profile] dissonates 2008-05-04 08:03 am (UTC)(link)
With the replica in the middle.
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[personal profile] dissonates 2008-05-04 08:15 am (UTC)(link)
That's not something that will change, Guy. Now, more than ever.

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[identity profile] cherub-gardios.livejournal.com 2008-05-04 08:31 am (UTC)(link)
You don't have to tell me that, Asch. Luke is an irreplaceable part of my life.
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[personal profile] dissonates 2008-05-04 08:32 am (UTC)(link)
.... Irreplaceable. Must be nice.
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[personal profile] dissonates 2008-05-04 08:35 am (UTC)(link)
It's the truth.

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[identity profile] cherub-gardios.livejournal.com 2008-05-04 08:38 am (UTC)(link)
No it's not, but nothing I say seems to convince you. Van may have done what he did purposefully, but we couldn't have known. Human replication -it was forbidden. Why would we even think that Van would do something like that?
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[personal profile] dissonates 2008-05-04 08:41 am (UTC)(link)
.... I don't know.

All I know is that the replica was good enough for you. I hate what he did, but... Van is the only one who needed me. Not just my body.

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[identity profile] cherub-gardios.livejournal.com 2008-05-04 08:44 am (UTC)(link)
...Van just wanted to use you.
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[personal profile] dissonates 2008-05-04 08:48 am (UTC)(link)
But it had to be me. No one else. Not even the replica.

Is it better to be used, or discarded and forgotten?

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[identity profile] cherub-gardios.livejournal.com 2008-05-04 08:52 am (UTC)(link)
And what about now? What about the people who want you for you, not for your hyperresonance, right now?
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[personal profile] dissonates 2008-05-04 08:54 am (UTC)(link)
I haven't decided yet.

Who's to say it won't happen again?

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