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Appointments Post

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[ ... of course, even though she decided to talk to him, actually doing it still makes her nervous. Breathe, Xion. ]

Asch? Could I talk to you?

[...He should have expected this, considering the looks he'd gotten earlier. Nosy replicas.

It's a while before he responds, and when he does, it's probably obvious that he's both suspicious and slightly irritated about being bothered.]

What do you want?

It's about yesterday.

[ Of course. ]

Asch ... your scars. They ... they didn't look like the kind of scars someone lives through.

[ It's a big, big reach, for her. What does she know? Really, it's an assumption... and at the same time, she's pushing. She needs a clear answer -- at least, clear enough for her real question. ]

[His eyes flash with sudden, defensive irritation. How dare she.]

How the hell is that any of your business!?

Because Luke cares about you. [ very softly. She does not flinch away from his anger. ]

... and I need to know if it needs to be kept a secret.

There's no secret. I didn't die from these wounds.

[...Not yet, mind you. But there's no reason for her or Luke to know the details of that, especially after the argument that Ion's death already caused. It's bad enough that half of their worldmates already know his fate- he'd like at least a few people to be left in the dark.]

Asch...

If he ever asks you, you're going to tell him the same thing, aren't you? That you didn't die from those wounds. But ... that doesn't actually answer the question of if you died.

Of course I'd tell him that. You think I'm going to lie just to make him cry about it or something?

[What kind of person does she take him for? Hasn't she realized that Luke's frequent angsting is what annoys him?]

And you should realize that if you don't know the truth, you won't need to keep any secrets. Stop acting like it's for him when you're just being nosy!

... being nosy? [ she laughs, weakly. ] Asch... you're not the kind of person I'd talk to unless I really had to. I definitely wouldn't contact you like this just because I was curious about something that ... really isn't any of my business.

[ she sighs. It's not her business, but it is Luke's. And he was so upset. If she has to lie to him and pretend she believes Asch lived, she wants a good reason. Asch isn't giving her what she hoped for. Of course, it was kind of a vain hope, anyway... ]

Okay. You didn't die. [ No one lives through wounds that leave scars like that. No one. She still smiles. ] I'm glad, then.

Whatever you say. [He has a feeling she doesn't believe him, but that's her problem, not his. He's not about to admit that he died when he hasn't, even if it's a pretty certain thing that he will in the future. It's not his fault that she phrased the question conveniently.

...Not that he's any more likely to tell her the truth if she did ask the right way.]

[ She's content to leave it at that. Asch is incredibly hard to talk to, and she meant it when she said she wouldn't talk to him more than was strictly necessary.

But just before she closes the journal, something occurs to her.

"If you don't know the truth, you won't need to keep any secrets."

... he's so belligerent about it, it hadn't really sunk in ... the nature of what he'd said.

He's actually, honestly doing her a favor. Because her suspicions are just that: suspicions. ]

Asch, you ... [ a pause. ] ... you know, if I didn't know any better, sometimes I'd think you really did care. [ Another smile, this one quite crooked. She's half-teasing, but ... she can't help but be a little taken aback. In his own, Asch-y way, it feels very much like he's trying to protect them. ]

[jkhfkjdshkjfhf. WHAT DID SHE HAVE TO GO AND SAY THAT FOR]

What!?

[ ohgod don't laugh don't laugh don't laugh don't laugh ]

Well ... it just feels like you're trying to protect us. ... in your own way.

I am not!! Don't shove your stupid theories on me! [STUPID REPLICAS, STUPID REPLICAS. What is it with them and being all emotional and touchy-feely, god.]

But you just....! [ okay, so she laughs. very quietly, though! and only once! ... but still. she laughed. ] You always get so mad! It's not a bad thing. I think it's really sweet.

Get this straight- the only thing I'm trying to do is make my life easier! If that dreck is worrying about me it'll just be a pain. It has nothing to do with protecting anyone but me!

[ okay, okay, fine, calming down now. if only to consider him, and find him very strange. ]

... then why help me, too? You said yourself that if I don't know the truth, I won't have to lie.

I already told you- it's none of your damn business! You don't even know me! Why should I tell you anything!?

... no, I really don't know you at all. But I'm starting to wish I did. [ gently ] You're a strange person, Asch. You still talk to me even though you know what I am.

If I'm forced to tolerate my own replica every day, I can deal with the rest of you. I don't see anything strange about that.

... "the rest of us"? [ ... besides her and Luke, who could he be referring to? Huh. She shakes her head. ] It's just ... I really don't know how to describe it! You act so mean, but ... then you do these things that are kind. Do you really only care about yourself...? [ very rhetorical. cuz she don't believe that, either. ]

I care about myself because I can't trust anyone else. That's all.

[And no, he's not going to tell her why, or even about "the rest of us", either. She's lucky he's still talking after all she's said.]

[ Again, she pulls up short. .......... he doesn't trust anyone else? No one at all? .... ]

There isn't ... anyone?

[ ... that's ... that's so sad. ]

That's not your business either.

[Even if he did trust a few, it doesn't mean he has a reason to trust her.]

[ a little indignantly ] You're the one who said it!

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