Asch the Bloody (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
dissonates) wrote2013-05-13 09:50 pm
dissonates) wrote2013-05-13 09:50 pm
[Written | Action]
[The message, tossed on the journal some time in the early afternoon, is short, carefully scripted, and with the camera concealed to keep it anonymous. He has no intention of dealing with the aftermath unless he absolutely has to.]
Luke fon Fabre and Xion have returned to their respective worlds.
[A short while later, another message is sent privately, though not so anonymously:]
[Private to Buffy and Jack (Horner)]
I won't be at the bar tonight. Close it if you want, work the shift yourselves, I don't care.
[After that, he's in the wind. First he goes out into the woods to where Luke was when they last spoke, to check for any signs of what might have been left, then to Luke's apartment to scour the place; he returns with a necklace, a ring, the Jewel of Lorelei, and a lot of hollow feelings.
After that, it's off to the Battle Dome, where he'll spend the next several hours destroying every simulation he can come up with, working his way through several of them one after another. He'll only stop once in a while when, in the midst of his fury and frustration, his body decides it's had enough; his heart seizes up, protesting the way it's being overworked. It's yet feeling the relief of that fact that for the first time in years, the weight of Luke's presence, their connection, no longer exists. His dissonance has been halted but he honestly wasn't prepared for how it would make him feel.
He won't be home for a long time.]
Luke fon Fabre and Xion have returned to their respective worlds.
[A short while later, another message is sent privately, though not so anonymously:]
[Private to Buffy and Jack (Horner)]
I won't be at the bar tonight. Close it if you want, work the shift yourselves, I don't care.
[After that, he's in the wind. First he goes out into the woods to where Luke was when they last spoke, to check for any signs of what might have been left, then to Luke's apartment to scour the place; he returns with a necklace, a ring, the Jewel of Lorelei, and a lot of hollow feelings.
After that, it's off to the Battle Dome, where he'll spend the next several hours destroying every simulation he can come up with, working his way through several of them one after another. He'll only stop once in a while when, in the midst of his fury and frustration, his body decides it's had enough; his heart seizes up, protesting the way it's being overworked. It's yet feeling the relief of that fact that for the first time in years, the weight of Luke's presence, their connection, no longer exists. His dissonance has been halted but he honestly wasn't prepared for how it would make him feel.
He won't be home for a long time.]
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[ And she isn't having any of that. ]
I meant how can I help you, Asch.
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You don't... need to help me. I told you, I'm fine- this isn't the first time this has happened.
[Not with losing the replica. And not with losing everything else, either. If anything the familiarity, the reminder of how pathetic his life is supposed to be, is almost a blessing.]
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It doesn't have to be about what you need. If you just want someone to be with you, I-I can do that, too.
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[Dammit, she's making it difficult to just stalk off in an angry huff and be alone for a while. Something about the look on her face makes him want to get angry and console her at the same time.
He doesn't like the conflicting experience, but it probably shows on his face.]
...I won't be good company right now. You should steer clear.
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You don't have to be alone in this, Asch. That's why I'm here.
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...He didn't used to be, though- that's the problem. For the last while, months, years, he's- there's been a presence. A connection, stronger here than back home, with the length of time it's been existing and with the amount of fonons mingling between the two of them. It's a hefty price, it's true - it's the very link that is slowly killing him, after all - but at least... someone had always been there.
Luke had always been there.
In the end he doesn't say anything, because every response that comes to mind either says too much or isn't enough. There just isn't enough words for this.]
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She steps towards him to wind her arms around his middle, if he'll let her. ]
action; man he gets all the rapunzel action lately
After Guy left, came back and killed him, a lot of those lessons just seemed so empty and meaningless. He wasn't even allowed to keep the good memories without them being tainted. Hell, he'll probably taint her too, somehow.
He fights it, stubbornly and hesitantly, and his hands are shaking when they finally lift and press against her back. He's all talk; it infuriates him, but it's the truth.
He misses Luke.]
action; this is getting hot
It's okay to be sad.
action; gonna take mah clooothes ooooff
Still... since when was it ever okay for him to feel sorry for himself?]
It's so pointless...
action; how come every time you come around my london london bridge is falling down
No, it's not. Sadness is a part of happiness, too. It's okay to be sad, to miss people, because...the reason we miss them was because they made us happy.
action; when you put your haands ooon meee
[He needs to stop. He needs to stop talking, to shut up, to leave and get the hell out of this conversation, out of this village, out of this world.]
He didn't. He couldn't. He stole everything from me... someone like that can't...
[He's doesn't like what being here is doing to him.]
action; my mind's tellin me no, but my body keeps tellin me yeahah
Happiness can come from unexpected places, too. [ Sometimes it was the most beautiful form of all. ]
action; i wanna staaand with you on the mooouuntaaaain
...Well. That one's a given anyway. No one hates Asch the Bloody like Asch the Bloody hates himself.]
action; i don't see nothin wrong with a little bump n grind
Eventually, she does speak up. ]
We could plant a flower for him at the memory garden.
action; I wanna make you feel wanted~
He's never been particularly fond of that whole idea - the thought that someone's existence in a place like this can devolve into a flower in the woods just seems too pathetic - but it's a sentimental thing. Luke likes sentimental. There's a reason for the pendant he's wearing around his neck right now, and the one he'd found in Luke's apartment.]
...I've got some selenias back at the house. He likes those.
action; sticks and stones may break my bones but chains and whips excite meeee
Let's go get them, then.
action; not like I faint every time we toooouuuch
He frowns and shoves his thoughts aside, leading the way down the road back to his house. He's not quite pulling away from her, but she's got a whole second to fall into step with him.]
I need to drop a few things off anyway...
action; like a virgin, touched for the very first tiiiiiime
It would make Luke happy. ]
You'll hold onto his things?
action; i was made for lovin you baby
That's... not entirely it. [Well, it is and it isn't.] He had something that would be dangerous in the wrong hands. It needs to be kept safe.
[He shouldn't be telling her this; his intent had been to take it in secret and share it with no one. It's weird, trusting someone like this.]
action; all through the night i'll make love to youuu
action; on this beautiful night we'll make everything right
He'd probably be annoyed at me for not trusting people more. I seriously doubt he even knows what it really is.
action; let's talk about you and me baby
[ She doesn't ask to pry, only as a distraction if it was something he wanted to talk about. ]
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But it's harmless, as long as it isn't named. And it's better than talking about the other subjects he doesn't want to consider now.]
It's... a relic from our world. Very old and very powerful. It could have hurt him if he wasn't cautious with it.
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