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Nothing's wrong. I just need to tell you everything.
[ Confused Natalia is confused. ]
What do you need to tell me?
What do you need to tell me?
[Secret, secret, he has so many secrets, hmm, where to start. Hopefully somewhere less awkward than-]
I've loved you since I was a child.
[........Oops.]
I've loved you since I was a child.
[........Oops.]
I don't have an icon shocked/embarrassed enough :T
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belovedoujo.livejournal.com
2009-08-04 09:37 pm (UTC)(link)
[ WHAT ON AULDRANT- ]
A-Asch...! W-why are you telling me this...?
A-Asch...! W-why are you telling me this...?
Jade told me to tell you. [And he will pay, oh, how he will pay.]
Unfortunately we won't ever get married, so I've been afraid to tell you all this time.
Unfortunately we won't ever get married, so I've been afraid to tell you all this time.
...
I know that. I just hoped that...
When I return to Auldrant, you won't be there, will you?
I know that. I just hoped that...
When I return to Auldrant, you won't be there, will you?
That's not it at all.
I just can't commit to you.
I just can't commit to you.
OH LORD THIS IS PAINFUL AND AMUSING AT THE SAME TIME
belovedoujo.livejournal.com
2009-08-04 10:23 pm (UTC)(link)
What do you mean...?
I don't have to tell you that. Just everything else.
[Oh thank god for small mercies, despite how embarrassed he is. This is not how he wanted her to find out.]
...Goddammit, this is all Jade's fault...!
[Oh thank god for small mercies, despite how embarrassed he is. This is not how he wanted her to find out.]
...Goddammit, this is all Jade's fault...!
Why is this the Colonel's fault?
[ This is getting more and more perplexing. Although she thinks she might know what's going on... ]
[ This is getting more and more perplexing. Although she thinks she might know what's going on... ]
He told me to tell you my secrets. Something's going on in the village - some kind of experiment - and I can't refuse. So that's what I'm doing.
[And he is pondering ways to get his revenge, oh yes.]
[And he is pondering ways to get his revenge, oh yes.]
[ She knew it. Though it did hurt that he had so many secrets... and that there was one he still wouldn't tell her, even though it sounded like it concerned her greatly. ]
I see... And he told you that you didn't have to tell me why you cannot 'commit to me'?
I see... And he told you that you didn't have to tell me why you cannot 'commit to me'?
[Asch is trying not to share too much, but it's difficult to resist. This is downright unfair - but she really is better off not knowing many of the things his mind is trying to encourage him to tell her.]
...You're better off not knowing, Natalia. At least not like this. And he's a bastard for making me do this to you.
...You're better off not knowing, Natalia. At least not like this. And he's a bastard for making me do this to you.
Then will you tell me once the experiment is over?
[ She agrees with the bastard part, not that she'd ever say it out loud. ]
[ She agrees with the bastard part, not that she'd ever say it out loud. ]
...Natalia...
[Inaudible sigh. Why must you make life difficult, you wonderful yet evil childhood friend. ,-_-]
...I don't want to talk over the journals. Where can I find you?
[Inaudible sigh. Why must you make life difficult, you wonderful yet evil childhood friend. ,-_-]
...I don't want to talk over the journals. Where can I find you?
[ Excuse me, you're the one keeping a shitload crapton lot of secrets. ]
I'm in the kitchen. I was about to make some lunch when I saw your message.
I'm in the kitchen. I was about to make some lunch when I saw your message.
[A-and he's very apologetic about that, but she really is better off not knowing his deepest and darkest thoughts. :|
He offers no response; instead, he heads out of his room and down the hall to the kitchen, looking for her. As irritated as he is that he even has to do this at all, it's much better to speak with her face-to-face.]
He offers no response; instead, he heads out of his room and down the hall to the kitchen, looking for her. As irritated as he is that he even has to do this at all, it's much better to speak with her face-to-face.]
[ Natalia closes the journal when she hears him come in and turns to face him. She must be careful not to issue any commands. Or suggestions. Or...
This was going to be difficult.
Anyways, she waits patiently for him to speak. ]
This was going to be difficult.
Anyways, she waits patiently for him to speak. ]
[Asch stops once he spots her, standing awkwardly in place for a long moment. He's not entirely sure what to say or do... he just had to see her.
Finally-]
...I'm sorry.
[It's the best he can come up with.]
Finally-]
...I'm sorry.
[It's the best he can come up with.]
/gives cookie... MADE BY NATALIA HERSELF.
belovedoujo.livejournal.com
2009-08-05 12:11 am (UTC)(link)
[ That wasn't informative in the least. Natalia is determined to know what he is keeping from her, but she can't find it in herself to keep pushing. ]
For what?
For what?
[No, no it wasn't. But Asch isn't really sure what else he's supposed to tell her.]
For being so blunt about everything. It's not fair to you - I should have been able to resist whatever's happening to us.
For being so blunt about everything. It's not fair to you - I should have been able to resist whatever's happening to us.
[ It's not much easier for Natalia either. Getting Asch to open up was like... I don't know, a simile of something seemingly impossible! But this puzzles her. ]
Why do you need to resist? If you have [blush] loved me since we were children.
Why do you need to resist? If you have [blush] loved me since we were children.
[You've got his reins, Natalia, if you want him to spill the beans. :|]
...It's... complicated. Even if I was free to be with you and so much hadn't changed, I still wouldn't have told you like that.
...It's... complicated. Even if I was free to be with you and so much hadn't changed, I still wouldn't have told you like that.
[ Out of everything he just said, only one thing actually sunk in, really. ]
Free to be with me? You... What... does that mean?
Free to be with me? You... What... does that mean?
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