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[dissonates]

"Lovely assistant", my ass.

Don't expect any masterpieces at the bar tonight.


[ooc: As Guy stated, Asch is looking after Grumpy Good Spirits for the night. People are free to visit him or just bother him via journals. He'll bitch either way, I'm sure.]

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[Private]

[dissonates]

... that's not the only reason.

[Private]

[count-gardios.livejournal.com]

Then the other is or others are...?

[Private]

[dissonates]

.....

I felt left behind.

[Private]

[count-gardios.livejournal.com]

...what, because I was worried about Luke?

[Private]

[dissonates]

...You told me once that it doesn't have to be one or the other. But it still feels like that sometimes, Guy.

[Private]

[count-gardios.livejournal.com]

...you're jealous. You want me all to yourself.

[Private]

[dissonates]

[BZZZZT. Wrong.]

[Private]

[count-gardios.livejournal.com]

Then what are you talking about? I can't tell you that I'm not going to care about Luke, Asch, he's my best friend. That's got nothing to do with a replica/original relationship, that's being a human being.

[Private]

[dissonates]

I'm not asking you to stop caring about him. I know that's impossible.

But don't act like I mean something to you if I'm going to be invisible as soon as something happens to him.

[Private] 1/2

[count-gardios.livejournal.com]

I wasn-

[Private]

[count-gardios.livejournal.com]

...was...

...Asch, was I ignoring you...?

[Private]

[dissonates]

Reversing the link put a strain on me, too. I wasn't just trying to get away from him.

[Private]

[count-gardios.livejournal.com]

[And Guy knew that, too. Yeah...now he feels like a complete dick.]

...I'm...sorry, Asch.

[Private]

[dissonates]

[Asch is not great with apologies, whether he's giving them or taking them.]

....

[Private]

[count-gardios.livejournal.com]

...would you like me to go up there?

[Private]

[dissonates]

I thought you didn't want him to be left alone.

[Private]

[count-gardios.livejournal.com]

I'm just hovering. You know how I am. I can ask someone to stay if I need to.

[Private]

[dissonates]

...It's your choice.

[Private]

[count-gardios.livejournal.com]

[...damn it.]

...would you come home if I asked you to?

[Private]

[dissonates]

Is that what you really want?

[Private; Voice] 1/fuck i dunno

[count-gardios.livejournal.com]

...Asch...I need to apologize.

[Private; Voice]

[count-gardios.livejournal.com]

I...act like just because I'm older than you, or because maybe I'm more socially adjusted than you that I know so much more than you do, about people and even about yourself. I say things like "I know you too well," or, "because I know you..."

[Private; Voice]

[count-gardios.livejournal.com]

But I don't.

I might be able to predict how you act sometimes...but you can hide things from me without me even being able to tell. And I'm too absorbed in myself and other things to even ask you, because...I don't give you enough consideration. Because I don't know you well enough.

[Private; Voice]

[count-gardios.livejournal.com]

I...do care about you, Asch. And I want what we have to become something really-...important, really special, I really do...I'm just not sure how to go about doing it.

We stagnated...I know. And it's my fault.


...please forgive me...and give me a little time to stop fumbling around like an idiot.

[Private] 1/uhhh idk either

[dissonates]