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What the hell happened to me.

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I dunno, I kind of liked it.

.... I wasn't myself.

That's funny, because you recognized where you were, and who we were. You sounded coherent; strung together sentences with words instead of growls and everything.

.......

Are you making fun of me?

Of course not.

Honestly, was it that bad?

I was nice to the replica.

So? And he was nice back. And we all enjoyed ourselves.

I really don't see what the problem is.

Of course you don't.

So why don't you tell me?

It should be obvious, considering who you're talking to.

Then I must be missing something.

Why are you so insistant on hating Luke? It wasn't his fault and you know it, Asch. The only one keeping you from being happy now is you.

Who the hell do you think you are, to tell me that?! I have nothing because of him!

Bull. Shit.

.... What.

You have parents who are alive and well, who love you. You have Natalia, who loves you. You have Luke, who would like to love you, and you have several other people who obviously care about your well being -myself included- that you refuse to acknowledge because you're so stuck on what was taken from you that you can't see what you've been given!

...don't you dare lecture me on loss.

.......

I....

.......

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...just...stop.

...It's so tiring...hating everything for what's happened.

......

I... I know you're trying to help...

....

I don't... know how...

You know how.

But you're scared. Don't...don't just...deny it, Asch, I know. All right?

I know.

~~I'm not-~~

....

... Why would I be scared?

It's a little different for me, but for you...I'd say...

Once you stop hating, you realize that you have something to live for. And that makes your mortality...a lot more apparent.

..............

When we spoke before, when I wasn't so... angry...

I felt...

...I don't know.

....free.

...you don't have to rush it.

If you want...we can do little things, like this. Until you're ready.

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